Duffe

Dear Rocco, Last night I was looking through my old pictures on Facebook and saw your comments and reactions. I know you are no longer in pain and that you are free of it. I can only imagine how life would be like if you were still around. Things have changed drastically over the past few months. Our son - your little name-sake has kept me and Stella so busy that time flew by like the wind. I bought a car like we planned but I still live in our same house house. The floor mats you bought and the curtains still hang. I had mixed feelings about still living in the house, I still have doubts now - whether to leave it all behind and move on, or stick around with some memories you with us.  Remember the camera you bought during your graduation, yes its still with me and I gave it to little Rocco. Its his now, just like all the other properties he claimed - he is now the boss of the house. I'm sure you both would have a special bond. Seeing him growing up reminds me of our childhood. I b...

 As I sit here in this very room carrying my child, I pictured your last days in this room. The last time I came in and sat with you, the light was off and it was dark. I asked if you were okay and if there's anything I can do. In a quiet yet confident voice you told me that all is good and that you are just waiting for the final scan results from the hospital. I trusted your words, a you are a medical professional yourself. We talked for a bit and I walked thinking we will be fine. Little did I know, this would be the last time we sat down together.  It's just the kind of person you are. You never wanted to be a burden to anyone else - even your immediate family. You've got a wonderful spirit that all that you have crossed paths with would forever cherish. You are my longest best friend and brother. Since childhood we were inseparable and I am blessed to have you as my family and close to me.  The last picture in my phone of Late Desmond Roccoh Manui in May 2019 at Gereh...

Wanpla wik nau na yu silip lo matmat bata. Mi kam bek long haus yumi stap long em na tingim laspela taim yu bin sidaun lo varanda. Tingim taim yu save pinis wok na kam bek na katim side lo fence na kam insait, sidaun rausim shoe blo yu, tromoi wanpla nek, laf, smile na wokabaut go insait lo rum blo yu. Kain dressing blo yu, wanpla gentlemen slimfit shirt wantem jeans na stockman, saitim liklik bilum blo yu lo wansait. Every fortnait blo yu ba yu kam wantem shopping plastic na go stret lo kitchen. Sampla taim yu sa wok nait em moning ba yu kam wantem shopping. Weekend ba yu mekim plan wantem small sis lo go painim pizza. Hamaspla plan go nating na mipla no kaikai pizza yet. But em funny tasol. Yu yet wanpla unique bata. Ol funny blo yu sa mekim na at least house sa laf liklik. Every afternoon lo taim blo dinner na lo weekend mornings. Yu no sa raun outside tumas. Free time blo yu em blo blockim yau lo headphone na watch.  Taim yu bin sick, laptop bin play...

Bats, I wish had done everything possible to break you free from this. I know that you've suffered more than you deserved. Yu yet yu strongpla man. Yu no kain man blo kros pait. But you cannot carry all the burden on your own. We shared everything, wish we could share this. I hate the fact that I watched on the sidelines, occupied with other things than to put 110% into making sure you were comfortable and had a decent journey through. But I also know that you will never want to be dependent. You never wanted pity because you were strong and you fought well. Although things didnt go well, you still loved everyone. Even when we don't deserve it, you still loved us all. My blood I will surely miss the days, our good and bad days and will surely miss you saying 'ba yumi orait'. Nau yu malolo. Rest well bata. I've never been more heart broken, even thought it might not show. In my mind, youre there smiling. Always smiling. Every where we've been, ...

Since pre-school yumi pas wantem kam inap yumi kamap man na work moni. Yumi sharim chalk, blackboard, pencil, eraser, book, paper, clothes, shoe, money na finally we have a house. Tingim bek taim yumi no sa malolo lo kisim prize lo primary school na taim yumi grade ten we were so proud of getting all Distinctions. You chose to work on people and I chose to work on computers. No matter what we've gone through, it was always together. Hevi blo you em hevi blo mi, amamas blo yu em amamas blo mi too. When mi sa daun bai yu tok "ba yumi orait" na taim yu daun ba me tok "ba yumi orait". Mitla wantem no man blo toktok tumas - lukluk lo eye tasol na stap. We can accoplish a lot without anything without even saying more than three words. We had plans, big plans for the both of us. We had dreams and we worked hard for it. We sacrificed for the ones we loved and sometimes we get annoyed but we still do it. Tupla workman but shoe trausis kolos blo umi osem ol ...